Loneliness and Aloneness

2038-01-19T03:14:07Z

I met a nice family today.

And it made me both happy and sad.Happy that such families do exist, where there are good people who genuinely love without bullying or threatening. Who spread warmth and truly make a house a home. Parents whom one can speak to freely and respect. Parents who are wise and loving. And siblings who belong there as much as you do.

One of the worst things to see is really a heartbroken wife and mother. What can you say to comfort her? Her appetite is ruined and you see her staring into the distance one moment while ranting angrily at another. And when she thinks you don't hear, she cries.

There's nothing you can do because you realise that a child can never be a husband. You realise that you have been an observer all these years. Not a child who easily slips into an easy, affectionate banter with his or her mother. An observer. Someone who simply watches and gradually, forgets how to reach out and be part of it.

You look back through your past years growing up and try to remember the good times. Surely there must have been some right? There was always something or someone missing.

It's too late now, though. You are not sure when things began to go awry and when you forgot to communicate. This is how things are.

Just as the wife cries secretly, you too feel the loneliness of the house. How wide the spaces are and how silent it can be.

This is the house you return to everyday.

Loneliness and aloneness. How do you put it to words?

A Little Misspent

Loneliness and Aloneness